Alright, it's time for me to rant. I've been holding this in from the get-go and it's gotten to the point in which I can't anymore. Of course names in this little tale are changed for good reason, since y'know.. Privacy issues are on the rise (bullshitbullshit).


So, a year ago, I was going to High school with the people I've known since forever, and I was happily in a one-sided love thing with this guy named Mark*. Weird right? You'd think by high school I would've learned not to let these things to affect me anymore, but I really liked the guy. I mean, REALLLLLYY liked the guy. Nothing too obsessive though, because that would've been .. something my already estranged brain can't handle. So, to go on with my rant, this guy gave me hugs always-- constantly! If I asked, he'd give me an extra tight one. He was just a really amazing guy. If I had stayed at that school my Junior year, I think I would've asked him to go on at least one date. I mean, Mark was just the shit to me. My best friend didn't think so, but I decided to risk it. He was a real sweet heart.

Little did I know, another friend of mine apparently had a crush on him, but she never told me. I don't understand why, but Michelle* should've just came clean about it. Instead, I guess she suppressed the feelings until I moved, because the next thing I know-- I'm being told that they're dating. I mean, COME ON. You've GOT to be kidding me. Ugh.

So by now, I'm over it slightly. But, in the back of my mind, Michelle really did hurt my feelings. She knew how I felt about him.. And then she threw that at me. Right now, I realize that.. It's pathetic. Their relationship probably won't last, but I'm not going to jinx it for them. If it happens, it happens.

So, I'll end it with this.

He was closer to my age than yours.

Happy 18th Birthday to me.